degringolade

Boring ground plant

I admit it, I haven't been all that good lately about posting. I would love to give a good excuse, but the fact of the matter is that I just haven't felt like it. My routine was disrupted somehow, and I still can't quite figure out what was the trigger for that disruption. The routine seems to have seeped away slowly over the last six months and I have no idea whether that is normal. But, what is done is what is done.

I am thinking that I need to return to some kind of a routine. I tried to be a hippy-dippy "do what thou wilt" kinda guy, but truthfully, that sort of life seems more than a bit sterile and pointless. By no means do I want to return to a life where my actions are dictated by others (that is definitely a routine I wish to avoid), but rather I need to generate a bigger portion of self-discipline for myself. The hard part is that I need to do this in a "halfway" manner and I have never been all that good about that kind of thing.

What concerns me is that this avenue of thought comes close to being a "resolution". These have never worked out for me all that well. But I do think that I will spend the next little while (and no, I don't know what period of time constitutes "a little while") trying to work this kind of thing out.

I'll get back to you.