degringolade

Went out to a concert/show last night. By myself. I have never done that before in my life.

What surprises me is how much I enjoyed myself. Actually traded e-mails with a fellow old-fucking-hippie and danced and talked and drank and discussed.

All of this is due a serendipitous random conversation at the solistice.

A friend took me out last week and allowed me to break through a barrier I placed there myself twenty years ago. I am thinking that maybe being a monk/hermit isn't the way that I want to go during my dotage. The trouble is, now I have to figure out how to do this. I am wayyyyy out of practice.

I think that my living arrangements are good for right now. No need to make any changes there. No need to change personal habits from where they are now since I am actually developing good habits (I know: but better late than never).

Nope, the hard part will be to figure out how to open the rusty hinges on an old scarred heart.