degringolade

I suppose the reason that I have taken the past couple of days off from posting is that I am brain bound. The subjects that I am pondering ponderously simply aren’t amenable to being understood by my brain.

Now you might think that this is an easy way out, but it really isn’t, the folks that I discuss this kind of thing with are all thinking that they have the key to understanding. I am coming to think of the problem is that this kind of “understanding” conceals more than it reveals.

I am seriously considering reverting to one of my older ways of thinking about the human condition. That we are a bunch of jumped up apes that were designed to pick fruit off of trees (without tending them) bludgeon small animals to death and eat them whenever possible, fight anyone who threatens our current surplus, and fuck anything that appears even marginally cooperative.

In other words, we aren’t all that smart and we definitely aren’t all that good. Our so-called moral narratives are usually based on the idea that, since we are so special, we should be allowed to take other people's shit and keep it. Our theories about how the mind “works” is untestable and unprovable and usually grows into a suffocating religion if it become common enough.

Even worse is the concept of morals and ethics. That is a shitshow of vaudevillian flavor. It eventually boils down to a not very subtle rationalization of maintaining either an individual or community edge on the competition.

I will continue to ponder this kind of thing. I will nibble around the edges of the soul and try to figure out how I fit into the whole thing, but I am not holding out any hope that I will succeed. I am more and more comfortable with the thuggish heredity that I maintain and I refuse to apologize for the current judgement of the past.

We are just animals being animals. We just have ways to amplify our actions.