Musing

Mikalojus Konstantinas Ciurlionis/ The Demon

"Behind the concrete, the visible events, behind all the objective, logical considerations, we find that which goes beyond the merely rational: the struggle against evil, against the servants of the antichrist. 

Everywhere and always demonic powers lurk in the dark, waiting for the moment when man is weak; when of his own volition he leaves his place in Creation, as founded for him by God in freedom; and when he yields to the forces of evil, he separates himself from the powers of a higher order; after voluntarily taking the first step, he is driven on and on to the next and to the next, at a furiously accelerating rate."

Die Weiße Rose, Fourth Leaflet, Munich, 1942

SImply taking time in the morning to start out on the right foot is one of those real "affordable luxuries" that most folks just don't have a clue how to handle.  Now, I am not bitching at them or even casting aspersions, just kinda sadly stating facts.  I should know, I am just getting into the habit. 

When I say starting out on the right foot, I mean just taking a small piece of time, sitting quietly, and trying to shut down the internal chatter of your brain/consciousness/spirit and just giving yourself time for the engine to warm up. 

I never did bother with this much when I was a go-getter.  Now that my workaday world is over I almost accidentally stumbled onto this in the scramble to find a internal purpose to replace the gap left when I exited the external purpose of the workaday world.  Wasn't time, and truthfully didn't seem to be important at the time.  I might have to recant that theory.  Now don't worry about it, I am never going to be all that profoundly spiritual, and I think that some folks will accuse me of being spiritual, with its focus on a sort of worship and modified virtue signalling, and will sneer at my lack of faith in their prescriptions and proscriptions, but I don't think they and I are talking about the same thing.

The thing/consciousness that appears to tag along wherever I drag this set of old bones needs time to get settled before going out.  Taking that time is a luxury.  The thing/consciousness needs some time to adjust to coming back into the mundane.  My advice is to give it time to do so.  I think that the choices made after allowing this time of adjustment seem to work a little better and aren't so bothered by "demons".