Questions

 

Now I have to think and make a decision.  I have actually got off my ass and applied for other jobs.  But at 03:00 last night I woke up to the idea that I am just two years away from leaving this place for good.  My desire to leave is bound up in the idea that I am doing more work that my peers and that my peers are lazy slugs.  These are true statements.

But the truth of the matter, when all is said and done, is that I still don't work all that hard.  I know the job well and I do good things.  I get paid every two weeks.  What the fuck am I looking to do?

I think that mostly, I am leaving because of a desire for some kind of respect and equality.  But that ain't gonna happen somewhere else either.